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Music » “We Own The Sky” by M83
Novel » Last Exit to Brooklyn by Hubert Selby, Jr.
Thanks to all of you who voted for me in the IceCaves Web Awards for “Most Inspirational Webmaster”. It means a lot, but I think Faye deserves it more than I do. I’d also like to thank those of you who read my blog who showed excitement & support for my jewelry proceeds to charity idea. I’m humbled by your support.
My friend, Cau, has incessantly yammered about the scientific health benefits you can gain from meditation & has taught me how to meditate on loving kindness. Only until today have I completely comprehended what he was trying to tell me: change is not impossible. Although we all are wired a certain way, we can & will change.
For example, there is someone I’ve known for a long time whom I’ve never admired. I’ve always felt as though gloom & doom followed him wherever he went. His constant criticism & negativity made him a Debbie Downer. When something traumatic happened to him, he changed & was more congenial. I saw through it & knew it was a cry for sympathy & attention. My brother said I was “messed up” for not believing that this person changed for the better. Skeptical, I was reluctant to believe his new found attitude would stay.
“I bet you that in 2 or 3 months, he’ll revert back to his old self,” I told my brother.
In 2 or 3 months, I proved my brother wrong. The Debbie Downer & those who are stuck in their negative ways may seem like a “lost cause”, but not all hope is lost. Change is inevitable; it’s just a matter of when.
One of the biggest mistakes women make is when they believe their man will change for them. People change, but not for you. In fact, most of us change for no one else but ourselves & we shouldn’t change for anyone regardless. I know I’m a stubborn individual like my father, but it’s a personality flaw that I’m working to adjust.
It’s not impossible to change the way you are (attitude wise). If you are willing to change your stubbornness–like me–or your attitude, you can overcome it, but it takes time. If you open your heart & mind to positive thoughts of good will & kindness, you can rewire your brain to be more forgiving. You’d be able to find peace of mind, hate Calculus less, find the will the forgive that girl who told everyone that you stuffed your bra in 7th grade when you clearly didn’t & she was just obviously jealous of your A cup; you’ll eventually find patience. Forgiveness shouldn’t be a privilege, it shouldn’t need to be earned. Forgiveness should come from within when you find the heart to move on & acknowledge that holding resentment close to your heart will not make you feel better, it will only hurt you.
In conclusion, I’d like for those of you who are suffering with anger or the inability to change, to consider this quote from Dr. Bob Sweeney from American History X:
There was a moment, when I used to blame everything and everyone for all the pain and suffering and vile things that happened to me, that I saw happen to my people. Used to blame everybody. Blamed white people, blamed society, blamed God. I didn’t get no answers ’cause I was asking the wrong questions. You have to ask the right questions…Has anything you’ve done made your life better?
In context to the blog, ask yourself if anything you’ve done out of hatred, greed, anger, or hurt made your life better. If it hasn’t, you need to look hard into the mirror & acknowledge that you need to be the change you want to see.
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Music » “Going, Going, Gone” by Stars
Novel » Dracula by Bram Stoker
Happy Valentine’s day & happy Lunar New Year everyone! I hope everyone has an enjoyable Sunday whether or not your celebrate these holidays. I’ve been sick since Thursday so Johnathan & I have decided to celebrate Valentine’s day tomorrow on President’s day. Last semester I shared with you my class schedule & since school has started for me two weeks ago, it’s time for me to share with you again.
Anthropology 100: Intro to Cultural Anthropology
Anthropology 185: Intro to Biological/Physical Anthropology
Anthropology 280: Intro to Archaeology
Biology 181: Cell/Molecular Biology
French 285: Intermediate French
I’m taking 6 classes (the 6th one is my Anthropology 185 Lab which gets a separate grade) so I get really busy & exhausted but I’ll always make time for the site.
I’m going to run another domain giveaway contest so if you are a hosting site & you’d like me to purchase hosting from you for the contest, please e-mail me at email@example.com! I’ll even toss in a free ad spot for the duration of 3 months. ^_^
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Enter in the Icon Contest!
Changed up my About Me page
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[Music:] “Cloack & Dagger” by Brightwood
[Novel:] He’s Just Not That Into You by Greg Behrendt and Liz Tuccillo
ZOMG I’m really sorry affies & visitors! This month has been a struggle for me since I was locked out (twice) & the server was having problems. I’m still updating things so I don’t really know why I got reviewed after I just got the site back. Obviously it’s not ready to be reviewed. The pluggable.php error has been fixed! I also have a hostee who has recently opened her site. Check out April at Dance Inside.
The (much delayed) results are in & it was a close call. I’d like to congratulate Sabryna for winning the icon contest! Second place goes to Bonnie. No third place winner due to a tie & I’m not holding a tie breaker but to all of those who participated, thanks! You all had wonderful icons, it was really hard for me to even choose. The new icon contest will start tomorrow (Feb. 8th). Instructions will be completely different. Don’t be afraid to join again. If anyone can win 3 icon contests (doesn’t have to be consecutively), they will ultimately get a year of advertisement. You are all free to post your icons! Here are all of the contestants & their submissions:
I got a new car & if you’d like to learn more about it, I wrote a story; pictures included at the bottom of it. You don’t need to read the article! I better not get any comments asking me what I got.
Changed the Archives & Categories to make the list smaller. Trying to find a code that will allow people to click on a link thus revealing all Archives/Categories. Drop down menus seem tacky to me.
9 Sex & The City Icons
February’s Icon Contest
1 Question Answered
The Story of How I Got My New Car.
Photofun page is neater!
February’s Icon Contest
Join now! Click here to join. The instructions are different this time. You have two weeks to submit your icons. I need one more contestant to start posting up contestant names!
[Music:] “Succexy” by Metric
[Novel:] Untamed by P.C. Cast + Kristin Cast
Funny picture of Dr. Chase, don’t you think? I took the screenshot at a bad time. He’s still gorgeous. :lust: Yesterday, I had this Calculus exam & it made me a sad panda. Before that, I went with Nugget (Not his real name. HI NUGGET!!) to eat at Maru Sushi. SOO delicious! We were so full; talk about a food coma. Hours later when I got home, I saw KFC & I immediately thought of my little Tiffany who hates KFC. For a good reason too. I was really hungry though, so forgive me. I know, they died cruel & inhumane deaths. Right now, I’m really craving Guppy Teahouse.
In addition, I have some tiny updates. If you guys couldn’t view my website earlier, it was because AshPink’s server was being all crazy for a little bit, but it’s up & running.
1 HTML/CSS tutorial (my first one)
Last night I had the most absurd dream. x_x I told Bryan about it: I was walking from Von’s to my house (which is about 5-6 miles) because my car wasn’t in the parking lot & this old man in a wheel-chair without arms nor legs, was wheeling along side me. Flash forward to a really weird version of my house–he was there! The guy followed me home. I was in some room, turned around, there he was! I was freaked out, I didn’t know what to do, so I threw a remote at his forehead. I stared him in his blue eyes & he basically looked like an older version of McCain (Bryan asked, “How can someone look older than McCain?” Psh, I don’t know!) & was seriously freaked out. He kept trying to talk to me with his creepy voice & he whistled when he talked (like McCain) so I thought, “I NEEDZ TO GTFO OF HERE!!” I walked to various rooms, closed the doors behind, turned around, BOOM, he re-appeared! I was trapped by the creeper! I was so startled. How would you like to be chased around by a creepy old guy in a wheel-chair?! T_T First nightmare in a really long time.
I also dreamed that I was playing with my 3 year old self. Really weird. I just remember wanting to pinch my own cheeks.